“A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn’t predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened. The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy. All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted. I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once. Our relationship was not ‘a sham’ as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a “Normal life” found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much. I wanted to ‘save him.’ I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened. His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn’t know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then. At that time, in trying to save him, I almost lost myself. He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated. When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad. Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson’s being or actions. I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him. I was in over my head while trying. I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision. The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.

“After the divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret. Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation. At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now. As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play.

“The exact scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted. Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him. He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together. I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now. He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be. I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is. The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right. I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.”

There are rumors that Michael’s cardiac arrest was precipitated by him being injected with high doses of Demerol, a painkiller drug. He reportedly got addicted to painkillers after he was badly burned in the shooting of his Pepsi commercial. A source from UCLA Hospital said that his breathing began to get shallower and slower after he was injected with a particularly high dose of this drug. He was administered mouth-to-mouth resuscitation by his staff.  The ambulance arrived in eight minutes but Jackson was already found to be in full cardiac arrest, no pulse, and not breathing.

All efforts were exhausted to revive him but sadly, he never regained consciousness.

Initial reports indicate that Michael was found non-responsive at his home, but his exact cause of death is not known. The Los Angeles County Coroner’s office tells ET that Jackson was transported from his residence in full cardiac arrest on Thursday. They say life-saving efforts were made by paramedics throughout transport to the hospital and efforts in the hospital emergency room continued on unsuccessfully.

Jackson was pronounced dead at 2:26 p.m. at UCLA Medical Center in Los Angeles.

Keep checking back here at ETonline.com for more on this developing story. We’ll have updates throughout the day and immediate autopsy results once they are officially released.

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According to a fan who had the privilege to visit him while he was performing for his last tour, Jackson was so unbelievably skinny when she went off to hug him. He spent his last night performing at Staples Center in Los Angeles for his upcoming London O2 concert.

The King of Pop is one of the most talented singer/performer and gained worldwide acclaim for his songs and dance moves. However in his latter years he was much criticised and made fun of because of his child molestation cases and his ever so changing appearance. He earned millions of dollars from his performances but it was said that he lost it and was in huge debt before his death. He was supposed to make a comeback concert which added to his stress and which close to him claim contributed to his death.

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This is a very sad moment indeed and the whole world mourns for the death of Michael Jackson.

Jackson was born in Gary, IN on August 29, 1958. Before he became a solo artist, Jackson was the youngest member of the Jackson Five, the explosive ’60s band formed by his four older brothers — Jackie, Tito, Jermaine, and Marlon Jackson — put Jackson on the path to stardom.

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